don't know is it worth airing my thoughts trying to make sense of them? Some people would say yes,me,i just don't know .
I kind of want to be done with it all.all this thinking and struggling to just be happy with who i am and where I'm at.
This MS business just does my head in,it just kind of wandered into my life and turned everything upside down,changed everything and how thingswere meant to be.it just takes and gives nothing back.If it were a friend it wouldn't be.
I am jealous of those I know who have it and can walk with out help,I am jealous of those who can work,I am jealous of those who are able to accept it and make a new life for themselves.Yep,I'm jealous.
At least i can be honest and admit it,that's a positive maybe.
I've been very down the last few weeks and angry.I feel like I've stagnated in my thinking got stuck.
This makes no sense.
I accept to some degree that i have MS and i can't change that and i hate it,maybe that's where i can find peace and acceptance,I have MS and I hate it.
That's where I'm at hating the disease hating what it's done to my life and body and I'm okay that I hate it
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